Chapter 93. I Choose Kakuhou.

You should think clearly about why you want to become human first. If you can't figure it out, turning back won't help at all. Mu Yang stood up, patted Kaneki on the shoulder, and said.

"Why turn into a human? Ghouls are this kind of evil..." Kaneki suddenly fell silent, because he realized ghouls also had good and bad sides. For example, the ghouls in the Antique Cafe felt warm and very humanistic with no trace of evil, whereas the investigators in the CCG seemed to lack much human touch.

It was like Shirazu Kanae being killed by Nishiki Arima. Clearly Miss Kanae was so kind, yet she had been slain by the investigators. Aya Hinami, after learning of her mother's death, was so helpless, just like a human being. So why must one turn back into a human? Why? If ghouls didn't need to eat human flesh, what difference would there be from humans? After turning back into a human, could one guarantee a permanent detachment from ghouls? Impossible. He had already eaten human flesh, now he had met many ghouls, and even harbored enmity with some. How could he detach himself from those ghoul relationships?

Turning back into a human would mean relinquishing his own protective power and depending instead on a CCG that only knew how to kill ghouls. Why? Why did he want to turn back so badly? Did he want to be protected by someone? No. But why was he so unwilling to admit he was a ghoul? It was such a simple matter—why?

"Because you are driving your current ghoul body with human thoughts rather than ghoul thoughts. Simply put, you have not converted your thinking into ghoul thinking. Although you have lived for decades using human methods of thought, when the identity changes you must also transform your way of thinking." Mu Yang looked at the bewildered Kaneki and said.

"Ghouls' way of thinking?" Kaneki murmured.

"Yes, ghouls' way of thinking. Why don't ghouls feel burdened when they eat humans? Because from birth ghouls have already regarded human flesh as food, not their own kind. Of course, this group of ghouls tends to be more irritable and lacks the restraint to hold back. The ghouls in the Antique Cafe are different; they wish to coexist peacefully with humans, so they only eat when they are at their most desperate limit. Kaneki, think it over carefully. Choosing to be human or a ghoul is not difficult at all." Mu Yang said.

"I choose ghoul." When Kaneki uttered these five words, his body felt much lighter.

"Correct choice. After some time, once you've truly grown, I'll come to pick you up. At that time you will be the leader of the Shepherds. Of course it must be after you've truly grown—not only in body but also in mind." Mu Yang said.

"Now I should go. Goodbye, Kaneki." Mu Yang turned around and said.

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"After helping Kaneki this time, the Gecko should emerge soon. The store manager's strength is actually quite formidable—at least he can handle a Soul Robber, and with his recovery ability he could even clash with a Sealed Robber. Mainly because the store manager makes delicious food, so save him." Mu Yang stretched his lazy waist and said, "Hurry back. The lizards should have already overthrown that small organization. So arrogant—it must be those Bronze Tree people handling the rear guard."

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